Gratefulness

Hey guys!! Welcome back to my blog, I feel like after last week’s post I just want to write about a few things I’m grateful for. I can’t lie the inspiration for this post was last Saturday when I went out with one of my favourite friends I hadn’t seen in what felt like a REALLY long time. It just reminded me that even though life has been really hectic lately and I’ve been struggling with keeping up, there really are some amazing moments, even if it’s just sitting in a comfortable silence with someone close to you.

Practising Gratefulness

I’m not here to tell you things like “being grateful will cure your depression” because quite honestly, it won’t. However, it does make appreciating the smaller things in life much easier which doesn’t make everyday seem like a total bore. I can genuinely say that the minute I started consciously practising gratefulness and romanticising my life, life has been that little bit better to get through. 

There are many ways to practise gratefulness and I mean most of them are quite obvious but my favourite way is to think or write down a couple of things I am so happy to have in my life and thank the universe. Whenever I am practising gratefulness, as cheesy as it sounds, it just feels like my special time with the world. It’s just me and the universe having a little conversation reminding each other that we’re grateful to have each other.

Things I’m Grateful for:

The first thing on this list is DEFINITELY my friends and family. Frankly, I’ve not always been lucky with finding friends or even just having a lot of friends for that matter and when I was younger it used to make me feel upset that everyone always had a set group of friends and I didn’t, it made me feel a bit unwanted but my family have always been there for me and have constantly reminded me that they’ll always be there for me and that’s what really made me so so close to them. Friends wise, these past two years have been some of the best and worst years of my life. I have managed to make some friends that I know are always going to be there for me, friends who actually get me excited to leave the house as opposed drained and tired. I may not have many but I sometimes wonder what I’ve actually done to deserve some of the most amazing people in the world and to have them in MY life.

The second thing on this list is books. Even when there were times where I felt like I couldn’t confide in people, I’d just give my absolutely battered copy of Pride and Prejudice a quick read and it instantly uplifts my mood. I love reading so so so much and whether it’s a cheeky fanfic or an intense philosophy book that takes me months to get through.

The third thing I am grateful for is dance. I could have a typical y/n fanfic moment and say something like “dance was there for me when the world wasn’t”  and I mean it is definitely true to some extent and when I’m feeling down I just dance, when I feel happy I dance. Dancing is a celebration of whatever mood I am in and never fails to put a smile on my face (or the occasionally tears if you do ballet hahaha).

This list could go on because when I started being grateful for the big things in life, it allowed me to feel grateful for every single thing. When I say I wake up and have a cup of tea thinking how lucky I am to have some tea, I mean it. There have been times where I look up to the stars and just cry a bit because I feel so connected with the universe.

One thing I am not trying to promote is toxic positivity. You are allowed to be grateful to the world and still not be happy all the time. It is ok to feel sad and have some off days and although it’s taken a while for me to understand that, I just wanted to remind all of you reading this right now.

I hope you enjoyed this week’s post, I am writing this in my free period before lacrosse and honestly my muscles are so sore I just want to sleep all day. We have a county tournament tomorrow (it will be today when I post this I guess) and I’m really hoping that I’m able to do well. I also applied and had a trial shift at a job I had been interested in for a while. It is a really nice pub and everyone working there are so kind, surprisingly there were a few people my age too which is exciting. I think the trial shift went well but I still haven’t received a call so I’m getting a bit nervous about it. My mum is also leaving to go to India on Friday so I’m going to miss her so much :((. Anyways, I hope you all have an amazing day, love you <33